If I could get away with tattooing the quote ‘Everything happens for a reason‘ across my forehead without looking like a total knob, I would – not that I care what people think, that is.Christmas is vast approaching and as we all know – it’s a time for reflection on the past year. To me personally, 2014 has been a complete game changer. I came into the new year jobless, clueless and to be god damn honest, I felt detached from everything. I felt run down by so many little things, and I graduated university last year with no clue what I wanted to do with my life. I used to beat myself up about not being where I should be at 24, (the perfect job, the perfect house) and I applied for endless amounts of jobs – most of them making me turn into the ugliest version of myself. At the start of this year, I just felt so frustrated with not knowing what I wanted to become or the person I wanted to be. But everyone feels like this at some point, right?
Laugh if you will, but I’ve seen way too many Derren Brown shows to believe that life is just a big ball of coincidences. It’s really not. We choose our own paths and sometimes, we subconsciously choose the hardest ones. In the end of course, I like to think these are the ones that make us stronger. 2014 taught me that experiencing the worst can also turn out to be the very best. In life, if you don’t go through the ups and downs, if you don’t experience bad situations… then how are you going to know when something good does finally come around? Me personally, I’m pretty certain that if I hadn’t of experienced the crappy jobs this year; if I didn’t go through all the worry and pressure from past dramas – I would not appreciate my world as much as I do right now. I’ve learned more than enough this year about not giving a shit, getting my head down, working hard and now because of it – and I’m finally happy.
I have a wonderful job, the most amazing friends, the perfect ginger boyfriend, so many wonderful blogging opportunities and I’m just… excited for the year ahead and the excitement it’ll bring. For the first time in a long time – I’m where I want to be. And I believe that as people, we go through hard – even brutal times, to come out better the other side. More than anything, this year taught me to let go of all the bullshit I carried with me over the past couple of years, all of the drama and worries that are just so pointless, and to just… let it be. I’ve found that doing what I need to do for me makes me the happiest person I can be, and I’ve realised that in time, everything slowly falls into place. So tell me, what do you hope 2015 will bring to you?